onto the PROVINCE

i'm really not fond of going to the province because, primarily, i have nothing to do. had i learned how to drive, i wouldn't have a problem there because i can do whatever just driving around town. if i'm at home, i'd rather stay home. i don't have anything to do. the tv only gets channel 2 clearly and the radio only has one clear station. it's not for the restless individual such as i am.

but now, i look at the province experience this sembreak as my break from the world. it's different from the retreat in a sense because i'm separated from the community i really care about, aclc. i think this helps me to view clc much more objectively and clearly. i can look at issues in a clear and unbiased way.

pakiramdam ko ngayon, masyado na akong engrossed sa mga nangyayari na tipong gusto kong balikan ang mahalaga sa pagiging aclcer ko, ang formation. hehe. corny as it may sound, i think aclc is aclc because of the formation that is so rich as it is rooted from shared experiences. there, God is moving me - moving us. i would like to use this time to look at the big picture and see how God is moving us with the things that are happening now.

well, i'm actually trying to convince myself that i will be productive there and not just sleep around and be lazy. hehehe.

wala pa ring paltos ang RETREAT

aside from being showered with graces, the retreat is known to be the beginning of all beginnings in aclc. well, it's the time when people really get to think a lot aside from pray.

for this retreat? wala pa ring paltos... di pa rin niya ako binigo; marami pa rin ang nangyari. it will begin a cycle which will shine during the second semester, will have revelations by carolling and last ditch efforts will appear by evsem. hehehe... indeed, the second sem aclc cycle has begun.

matindi.

knowing TOO much

now, i know too much. i don't know if i can handle this but i know i just want to know out of a loving heart. i promise that what i know, i won't use it against others. i just want to know to help if i can. i just want to know to deepen my relationships with them. it's up to them to tell me, but sometimes, i just know.

post RETREAT

hay.

i'm still in my retreat high. i will post my reflections as soon as i finished my expe paper that's long overdue. hehe. hindi pa rin ako masanay na mabilis na ang lahat sa paligid ko at nasa mundo na ako ulit.

tahimik...

sa wakas TAPOS NA!!!

i've never badly wanted a sem to end. EXCEPT NOW!

buti na lang natapos na. i can't believe it. i started the series of my finals the saturday before the actual finals week and i ended it the saturday of the finals week (it's not even an official finals time). grabe. well, i think this finals week really encapsulates the whole sem. nakakapagod. nakakastress. i really wanted the sembreak to begin.

oh well. finally! as i type this entry, my heart is pounding with excitement because tomorrow, i will, again, enter into solitude together with my community-mates with our God. nagparamdam na nga si God sa akin eh. hehehe.

hay. this last leg of the sem just made me much more excited. i'm really starting to feel the spirit of the retreat. lalo na kagabi. it was one of the most enjoyable evening of my junior aclc life. we had the traditional pre-retreat cba/get-together/fun-fun/happening or in short, inuman, at ani's place. wow! it was amazing. nag-inuman ang karamihan subalit di ako pwedeng maglasing like before (hehehe. sorry rinna!). i had to study for this day's test eh.

well, it turned out to be an event more than what i hoped for. MASYADONG MARAMI ang nangyari. hehehe. well, they weren't obvious but i sure did knew what was going on. hehehe. ask me if you want to know.

hay... i really want to go on with my story but, you know, i have retreat tomorrow and i still have to donate blood (di raw pwedeng magpuyat). tapos, still have expe paper (hindi pa tapos noh?) hehehe. oh well.

"i come empty handded, bringing you nothing but my desire to receive your gifts. fill my soul." goodluck on your retreat. - robbie paraan - aclc oac, 2004-05 (la lang. gusto ko lang ishare before i go on solitude.)

ready. get set. shhhhhhhh...
magnum silencium starts in 5... 4... 3... 2...
Lord, i'm here wanting to be with you again.

kailangan lang talagang SABIHIN

taking a break from philosophizing...

grabe. i am really having a good week amidst the tons of work and tests to deal with. why? simple. aclc juniors! i'm lucky to be part of this group. today, i found out how strong our batch is. i found out how our batch is filled with potential even though we are really outnumbered. i found out how our batch springs an important essence of clc and the aclc.

don't get me wrong. i'm not trying to be cliquish here nor am i trying to say that the other batches are not aclc material or other statements of that sort.

what i am trying to say is that i never felt so comfortable as an aclcer. i never felt so comfortable that i belong to a batch that is strong enough to be frontrunners and to be leaders. this week assured me that when we take the load of being the eldest among the community, i believe that we can make it. we can pull it through. we can put things together. i can enumerate everyone in our batch and say how he or she can contribute to our community with his/her strengths and capabilities. ganyan ako kabilib sa batch ko.

also, IT'S NOT IN THE QUANTITY, IT'S REALLY THE QUALITY.
that's my batch. with great pride, i would like to shout out to the world,
"i belong to a very formidable aclc batch!"

hehe. parang ang yabang. pero yan ang nararamdaman ko - kaunting pagkamangha at pagkayabang kasi ang galing ng mga kabatch ko.

p.s. basta magaling din ang ibang batch. kakaibang pride lang itong nararamdaman ko ngayon. peace tayong lahat.

PBB addict BREAKTIME

i'm sorry for this delay in blogging but don't expect too much. i just wanted to say that i'm really really hooked to the pinoy big brother. ayoko na. heto na naman ako. kaso nga lang, maraming kasabay na requirements for school so i'm sorry. i couldn't blog too much.