life. a melody. a rhythm. a harmony. a song written and sung by myself. so come on, sing with me!

10.29.2004

carolling practice

hirap talagang magcarolling practice. i never knew na ganoon na siya kahirap at katrabaho. nakakapagod dahil ang dami naming kailangang plantsahin lalo na sa tenor. we've been used to the way we sang different songs that were taught by recall. play by ear lang kami dati. ngayon, malupit na kasi may pieces na saka ginagawang pulido ang pagkakaawit. also, there are new songs being taught to us kaya kapa pa rin.

nonetheless, i'm getting very excited about the carolling. with the way things are going, mukha namang masaya at ayos ang kalalabasan ng aming carolling.

GOD'S LOVE!

10.27.2004

REG and DBs

today is still a manifestation of God's love. i had a long and tiring day but i still feel this joy and peace brought about by graces i know i received this day. actually, i have lots of reasons to be thankful to the Lord for this day and i'm filled with happiness and excitement. in short, GRABE! sa dalawang major stuff na ginawa ko, damang-dama ko pa rin ang buhos at basang-basa pa ako.




i had one of the best reg of my entire ateneo life. after getting the grades that i don't deserve but i still love them, i thought i would be disappointed by my reg. imagine having a number of 438! so before i went to registration, i wrote down all possible choices for the subjects we're suppose to choose for this semester: PE, Sci10 and Foreign Language.

let me begin with sci10. this is my best story during reg. when the random number reached 100+, our first choice for this subject closed immediately. apparently, many people knew about unson's easy class. siyempre, second choice na lang ang gusto namin di ba? by 200+, she, cuyegkeng, closed. so some settled for the 3 other choices that i did not want. so i prepared myself for marquez, who is one of the most difficult sci10 teachers because of his objective tests. in fairness, marami na kami na nagpaplanong kunin siya. in fact, two came out of enlistment telling us that they enlisted under marquez, one signed up for angtuaco, and the rest for guidote. however, with the goodness of the Lord, when the 360+ numbers were called, cuyegkeng opened her class and added 40 more to her previous class. thus, her class would be 80. it' s a big class but hey, i can still get her as my teacher. fortunately enough, i was able to enlist under her class -- with 20 slots left. akala ko hopeless na! but no, God's LOVE!

second, this was the funniest story of my reg. i wrote down all possible choices for my foreign language. initially, i would want to pick spanish. i took into mind all possible spanish classes. ang daming magagandang choices dahil karamihan ng teachers okay dun. maraming nagspanish din sa block ko so tempting. kaya lang, bambie wanted to pick japanese and 2 of my other blockmates picked japanese but they chose those with no teachers yet. here's the fun part. when i was about to enter enlistment, rica, my other blockmate, told me that all spanish for MWF are close. i wanted an MWF class because i wanted to get a 9-10 PE table tennis class. ayoko ngang gumising nang maaga -- tipong 7. hay. tapos, when i was enlisting, i found out that section M of japanese was open. siya ang subject na nagfifit sa sched ko (MWF, 1230-1330). last class ko siya MWF pero astig kasi by 1330, i'm off. this is the good part, yung okay na teacher ang teacher: hiroko nagai-yabut. funny cause my blockmates did not knew about hiroko nagai-yabut's section and schedule. that's why i'm able to sign up under her class. woohoo. i'm excited to speak japanese although i initially chose to pick spanish. i think this is a better choice. hehe.

lastly, of course, i was able to choose my desired PE. asteeg. table tennis at 9-10 in the morning every TTH. ayos!




here's my sked this coming sem. asteeg di ba?

MWF
0830-0930 SCI10 -- Assunta Cuyegkeng (SEC C 201) airconed
1030-1130 Hi16 -- Karl Cheng-Chua (BEL 310)
1130-1230 Eco102 -- Romelia Neri (K 201)
1230-1330 Jsp 1 -- Hiroko Nagai-Yabut (BEL 312)

TTh
0900-1000 PE116 pingpong -- Augusto Vargas (CovCourts)
1200-1330 Psy104 -- Celso Kirby Chua (SOM 105)
1330-1500 Psy103 -- Sharon Co (CTC 206)

o ha? asteeg di ba? not too early yet not too late. lots of time for myself and my studies. kaso lang, ang predicament ko ay ang BEL-Kostka-BEL transfer ko. pero ok lang yun! asteeg pa rin. hehe. kakainggit ba sked ko?




last on my list is the deliberations of new members. we had to co-discern for the betterment of the applicants and the community this coming semester. i can't disclose nor divulge anything from the DBs. confidential daw. when we had the most controversial decision, i felt the movement of the spirit in our discernment. maraming isinaalang-alang at pinahalagahan kaya naging mahirap. it's weighing between two different good things and this decision will be very important. we made a very difficult yet good decision. everyone became at peace with that. grabe. what a day.

this is fun. this is one of the best.

10.26.2004

post retreat CBA -- buhos pa rin

first of all, i'm very very very very ecstatic at my grades this first sem. it turned out to be much better than what i expected. YES! mas mataas pa siya kaysa sa second sem qpi ko. woohoo. grabe. i still feel God's love after i got my card. galing sobra.

here are my grades:
FIL 14 -- C+ (this is a surprise! grabe 'to... hooo...)
TH121 -- C+ (at least... buti na lang madali ang finals)
PSY101 -- B+
PSY102.1 -- B+
PSY102.2 -- A
SA21 -- B+

o ha. mataas. pe101 C+ lang pero kebs. hehehe.

and oh, by the way, this week is reg week kaya reg fever sa ateneo. agh. ayoko ng number ko and hindi ko sure kung makukuha ko ang desired classes ko. aaaahhhhhh... hehe. good luck. i'm still feeling God's love though.




kanina, nanggaling kami sa isang CBA after cleaning our org room and after getting our grades. halo ang naging response sa grades: iba nagkaconsolation, iba nadesolate. hehe. ok lang. we still went to our CBA in big R. masaya siya. i enjoyed it a lot because we really bonded. after eating in chow king, i got to spend time with 3 seniors in shopping. yung iba, nanood ng sky captains eklat (terrible movie raw pero dun sa mga gustong tumawa dahil sa kawalan ng kwenta at gustong mag-aksaya ng pera, di ko kayo pinipigilang manood). sa tagal ng pagshoshopping namin, natuwa ako. i never had that chance to spend time with friends in a stress-free day in a mall. o ha. namiss ko na yun.

tapos, after everything, nagpastudio picture kami. siksikan sa loob ng isang cubicle na napakaliit. haha. it was a funny sight pero ayos lang. aclc naman kami. kahit sa gitna ng mall, magpipicture-taking kami kasi jologs kami and we bond this way. kaya kami naiiba.

can i just say, it makes me enjoy being an aclcer more.

major reflection for this day: ang sarap ng feeling ng nasa mall ka na walang stress, lunes na lunes! o di ba? hehe. i really missed going to malls, walking around without thinking of any projects or requirements.




to end this entry, i would like to reflect on post-retreat stuff. it's true. as kekek would tell us, the retreat is a turning poing in an aclcer's life. kahit na tahimik ka sa loob ng isang linggo, it's still bonding with the community and maaattach ka sa community more after the wonderful event. this retreat has indeed become a turning point in most of us. sa mga nagpunta roon, nagkaroon ng connection at nagkaroon ng magandang ugnayan sa pagitan naming lahat. siguro bukod sa pagkakaroon namin ng pare-parehong karanasan ng GOD'S LOVE kung saan nalulunod pa rin ako, we encountered God's love in a very beautiful way kasi sobrang ganda ng retreat.

just as fraggy said, parang pagkatapos ng retreat gusto kong pumunta ng room at tumambay. sabi rin ni geo-ann, namiss na niya ang mga tao kahit isang weekend pa lang kaming hindi magkakasama. pagkakita namin sa mga tao sa paglilinis ng room, asteeg. grabe ang saya ng mga members. ngayon, ang daming nagstepup after feeling God's love during the retreat.

grabe God, i'm still feeling the shower of graces. i'm still wet. :D

10.25.2004

REG week

grabe talaga 'tong sembreak na ito. maikli. di ko man lang maramdaman na bakasyon. this week is reg week. so, technically, babalik na naman kami sa school. haay... hehe. after one week of retreat, registration naman. balik na sa stress, lalo na na 3 sa mga subjects ko ako pipili ng sections: PE, sci10 at foreign language. tapos, numero ko 438. ugh. i have slim chances of getting the teachers and sections i want. kakainis. hehe

later today, kuhaan ng grades so good luck. sana ok naman grades ko. sana sumampa man lang sa 3 ang qpi. hehe.

10.23.2004

fresh from the retreat

hello dear blog...

i'm back from my 5 day retreat. well, i was home by yesterday but i needed to rest. ngayon lang ako nagkapanahong magBLOG. hehe. i missed my computer although when i was there, i did not miss it that badly.

short entry lang for today.

i'll just end this entry with a thought. sa ngayon, busog na busog pa rin ako sa pagmamahal ni Lord. actually, basang-basa pa. nalulunod ako sa binuhos na grasya ng panginoon. patuloy pa rin ang pagbuhos. i love you lord.

10.16.2004

at long last... IT'S OVER

the feeling of no stress and the culmination of a dreadful semester is just so SWEET! yes, it's over. the "wonderful" semester has come to a close. most of the ateneans are in their vacation/bumming around mode. i don't know how to differentiate the two anymore. ONE BIG *SIGH* for the sem. woohoo. tapos na! ang sarap ng pakiramdam.

after rejoicing, i must plunge into the retreat disposition. shhh... i need to savor this time that i can be distracted. tomorrow at around 7, the silence begins. i will be quiet for a week. i will not think about anything else (bahala na!) except my relationship with God. four to five hours of prayer a day? kaya yan! i'm excited yet nervous.




kumusta ang aking mga huling finals? (haha... huling finals)

1. theo went well. nagpay-off ang pangangareer ng readings na pinababasa niya. salamat sa mga hints. my prediction came true kaso nga lang hindi niya dinagdagan -- binawasan niya. ang 5 tanong, hindi nanggaling sa lahat ng 5 readings na pinabasa niya. siguro 3 lang doon ang nagamit. lucky me. i was able to recall the key terms she asked us to enumerate tapos elaboration came easy. hehe. ayos na. i'm really satisfied with my performance in theo.

2. stat also went well. as compared to my midterms, mas maayos ang finals ngayon. INPUT DATA. ANALYZE DATA. COPY. INTERPRET. thank you SPSS. i love you. ganito lang kadali ang aming ginawa. i'm also satisfied.

kaya, anong ginagawa matapos ang huling finals? nageenjoy. i went out with my orgmates. kumain kami sa shakey's. naghang-out kami sa condo unit ng isa ko pang orgmate. tapos, sumama kami sa paghatid ng isa pang orgmate sa greenhills. yung mga di pa kumain, nag-Italliani's tapos we ate desert sa jack's loft sa wilson. grabe, ang ganda na ng greenhills! namiss ko tuloy ang pag-aaral sa xavier -- the saturdays, the late nights... hehe. gusto ko tuloy magturo talaga sa xavier. sana sa katipunan din ganun may night life. also, i liked jack's loft. ang ganda! wala lang. nice place to hang out.

anong oras ako nakauwi? 1:30 am. astig di ba? may retreat pa ako niyan mamayang 3 pm. hehe.

well, gusto ko kasi bago ako maging in disposed, i like to spend time with my friends and have fun, although ngayon sugar and snacks lang at walang alcohol. hehe.



ok, retreat na. sabi nga ni kim, di pa raw siya handa emotionally and spiritually. ako mismo di pa ganun kahanda. nagtataka nga ako kung bakit medyo wala pa akong sense of urgency ngayon. siguro, dala ito ng de-stressed weekend ng last day ng school. effect ito ng culmination ng semester. ang saya di ba? mamaya siguro pwede na siguro akong makapasok sa disposisyon ng magreretreat. Lord, paparating na ako!

to my friends: orgmates na di makapunta, blockmates, other friends, at marami pa sa inyong nagmamahal, pray for our community and i'll make sure you are in my prayers. to my family, i will pray for you too. God, ikaw naman. YEHEY! retreat time... shhh... i will be out for 5 to 6 days, kaya matagal na hiatus 'to.

PORQI is in RETREAT MODE. modesty of the eyes. magnum silencium.

10.15.2004

on theology...

don't laugh at me. i have not studied like this. kumbaga, naisapuso ko na lahat ng mga babasahin sa theology. heto na lang kasi ang paraan ko para makabawi sa isang sem na dapat mas maganda pa ang naging resulta. now, i'm paying the price. i should have done this during the sem not this time, kung kelan magtatapos na ang unang pagpapahirap sa ikalawang taon.

i'm somewhat nervous and at the same time, quite confident. when ms. jalandoni posted what we need to read and review, at least, the load became lighter. however, there's this little doubt in me that she might add some stuff that she did not mention. naaahhh... bahala na. tiwala na ako sa mga sinabi niya. pero kung tutuusin, nakatatak na yata sa utak ko ang aming mga pinag-aaralan. to think, i did not really believe in theology 121. siguro, mayabang ako kasi meron akong kakaibang human experience of God that i felt that i did not need someone lecturing me on how to scrutinize my faith. sana jesuit/ignatian spirituality na lang ang itinuturo, kaysa sa intact ilagay, para at least maisapuso naman ng mga atenista ang pinakapundasyon ng institusyong kinabibilangan naming lahat di ba? hehe. just a thought. ayoko munang masyadong magmuni-muni tungkol sa theo finals.

reality check: i need to go back to reading for the finals. sana madali lang!!! mahirap talaga.



my greetings to ANIKA SANCHEZ! welcome to the big happy community of bloggers... mukhang mas adik ka pa sa aming matagal-tagal na rin sa pagbablog. enjoy blogging.


10.14.2004

shhhh... RETREAT is near

i should practice silencing. 15 mins. 30 mins. 1 hour. 2 hours. 1 DAY. 5 DAYS!!! hehe. i'm really really excited about the retreat. i can't believe that it is on saturday! malapit na masyado. hindi pa rin ako handang-handa -- mentally, spiritually, maybe physically and emotionally. sana wala lang talagang multo dun.

probably, i have prepared by meeting my retreat director, spiritual director, unitmates and by thinking of what to bring for 5 days away from home and with my God. i'm excited! i don't know what to expect though. i just hope i may have a fruitful retreat. i'm begging for this wonderful grace of prayer and a time with God. i hope my prayers will pay off. guys, pray for me. i will also pray for you.




well, as we speak, finals fever pa rin sa ateneo. pero, nangingiliti na si sembreak. hehe. dormers are prepared to leave their temporary homes and go back to their families. classrooms will not be used for 2 and a half weeks. students will not be thinking of class, teachers, grades, papers, tests, quizzes, grrr... hehe. people are thinking of where to go for the first gimik after a dreadful first sem. the list goes on...

i'm quite relaxed, kahit maraming stressed sa ateneo. kahit hindi ako exempted, okay lang. i still think na maganda ang scheduling ng tests namin. i have more time to study theology. at least, makakapaghanda ako nang mas maayos kaysa sa performance ko sa theo buong sem. last chance to make up for 5 stupid missed quizzes. buti na lang din, tests lang kami this week. kung 2 weeks ago, hell dahil puro projects and papers. last week, hell dahil puro long tests. this week, relax dahil puro finals lang. maraming panahon para makapag-aral. maraming panahon para makapaghanda sa bakasyon. maraming panahon para maghanda sa aking retreat.

AYAN NA... abot-kamay ko na ang bakasyon. konti na lang... malapit na ako!

10.09.2004

last official day of the sem

blogging after a long pause (dahil sa long tests)

i would like to reiterate my favorite ym status recently: "salamat FIRST SEM... sa wakas, tapos ka na. whopeee..." with this, you can just imagine how much i've endured during the whole semester. to think, this was one of the easiest semesters of our (ab psych) college life. grabe. actually, my biggest worry this sem is getting an F. i cannot afford one anytime in college. i have a scholarship to take care of. that's why i'm really really stressed out. good thing that today, officially, this horrendous sem has reach its omega. FINALS NA LANG, retreat na!




i would like to share about our class play for filipino. it brought me lots of consolation because i realized that even though i have chosen aclc more than my block, i realized how fun it is to still be part of your block. i must admit, we grew closer to each other in doing this play. i enjoyed performing. i did not know i had the inner actor in me. nyek di ba? marunong naman akong umarte pero di sa entablado.

ang saya lang kasi kung tutuusin. alam kong marami akong pagkukulang sa paghahanda sa palabas na ito. marami akong late dahil di nagigising. maraming naging excuses para makapag-absent subalit habang nabubuo ang pira-piraso ng dula, nakakatuwang isipin na nagiging malapit kami bilang isang block. kahit yung mga di naming kaklase sa fil na blockmate ay tumutulong na sa amin. ganoon kami kaclose at ganoon ako kaswerte na mapunta sa isang block na inaalagaan ang isa't isa.

kahit na medyo kabado pa rin ako sa fil grade ko (kampante pa rin ako na hindi man ako magF, pero D pa rin ang worst case scenario ko), masaya ako sa nagawa namin bilang isang block. lalo kaming napagbuklod ng dulang ito, na dati'y inakala kong hadlang lang sa kasiyahan ko, isang requirement na nakakatamad. nagkamali ako.

humihingi ako ng tawad sa mga kagroup ko at kablock ko. but in all fairness to everyone, we did a great job. NAG-ENJOY AKO!




reflection 2: earthquake
lumindol muli kaninang 10:40 pm. kakaiba nga lang ang lindol ngayon dahil marami pang gising nang naramdaman ko. kaso nga lang, naramdaman ko siya sa labas ng bahay. di ko alam gagawin kanina. akala ko nahihilo lang ako. grabe talaga. kakatakot kasi pangalawang lindol na ito na naramdaman ko sa loob ng 2 buwan. nakakakaba noh!

since marami pa ang mulat sa panahong lumindol, siyempre naging buzz siya mula ym hanggang tv. grabe talaga. pero asteeeg... hehehe. joke. ayoko na ng lindol. nahihilo talaga ako.




RETREAT NA! hindi pa rin ako handa pero excited na excited na ako.
"let them be... what will happen will depend on the community. don't decide too much for them."

10.03.2004

christian mainstream artists

ngayon, may gusto akong music na pinakikinggan. i like those christian mainstream bands and artists that are now popular. when you listen to their music, akala mo alternative or rock music lang sila pero maganda ang meaning ng kanta nila. kaya ko rin sila gusto kasi maganda silang gamitin for presentations na pang-theology. hehe.

HELL WEEK over...

my hell week has officially ended. hooray. however, the work has not ended. ugh. it is endless. it never ends. i wish it would stop. AAAAAAAHHHHH!

i'm just thankful that i survived the week. kahit medyo walang tulog, ayos lang. kahit maraming spontaneous, ayos lang. i think whatever grades i would get, i really deserve them. i hope i don't fail though. I CAN'T FAIL anyway. hehehe.

heto lang muna. i'm still enjoying the weekend. hehe. kahit hindi pa tapos, ayos lang. nasasabik lalo ako sa paparating na retreat at sembreak.