the company

i watched part of the company's interview by cito beltran. i love their group. for me, they are the best acapella-pop-ballad group in the philippines for many years. even though more and more pop-capella groups are rising, i think no group can match what the company has contributed and shared to the philippine music industry.

here are some of their songs that i love:

Everlasting Love
I used to be so unhappy and so lonely
Love would come and never stay
But, that was yesterday

I was scared to admit I cared for someone
'Cause my heart would always break
But, things have changed today

Darling, did you know that something happened to us?
Right before the future and right after the past
Did you smile when you found out what a wonderful thing it was?
We found an everlasting love

I'm glad we'll go through life together
'Cause when you are by my side
Tomorrow looks so bright

I'm sure we'll stay in love forever
As for all our fears and doubt
They're all behind us now

Darling, did you know that something happened to us?
Right before the future and right after the past
Did you smile when you found out what a wonderful thing it was?
This love is everlasting
Darling, did you know that something happened to us?
Right before the future and right after the past
Did you smile when you found out what a wonderful thing it was?
We found an everlasting love

Sharing my love with you as
We journey through life walking hand in hand
But our lifetime seems short for a love
That will last 'til the end of time

Darling, did you know that something happened to us?
Right before the future and right after the past
Did you smile when you found out what a wonderful thing it was?
This love is everlasting

Darling, did you know that something happened to us?
Right before the future and right after the past
Did you smile when you found out what a wonderful thing it was?
Our hearts have found a love
(We found an everlasting love)
We found an everlasting love

Muntik na Kitang Minahal
May sikreto akong sasabihin sa `yo
Mayroong nangyaring hindi mo alam
Ito'y isang lihim itinagong kay tagal
Muntik na kitang minahal
`Di ko noon nakayang ipadama sa `yo
Ang nararamdaman ng pusong ito
At hanggang ngayon ay naaalala pa
Muntik na kitang minahal

Refrain:
Ngayon ay aaminin ko na
Na sana nga'y tayong dalawa
Bawa't tanong mo'y iniwasan ko
Akala ang pag-ibig mo'y `di totoo
`Di ko alam kung anong nangyari
Damdamin ko sa `yo'y hindi ko nasabi
Hanggang ang puso mo'y napagod
Sa paghihintay kay tagal
Saka ko lang naisip muntik na kitang minahal

`Di ko noon nakayang ipadama sa `yo
Ang nararamdaman ng pusong ito
At hanggang ngayon ay naaalala pa
Muntik na kitang minahal

Refrain:
Ngayon ay aaminin ko na
Na sana nga'y tayong dalawa
Bawa't tanong mo'y iniwasan ko
Akala ang pag-ibig mo'y `di totoo
`Di ko alam kung anong nangyari
Damdamin ko sa `yo'y hindi ko nasabi
Hanggang ang puso mo'y napagod
Sa paghihintay kay tagal
Saka ko lang naisip
Muntik na kitang minahal

Hanggang ang puso mo'y napagod
Sa paghihintay kay tagal
Saka ko lang naisip
Muntik na kitang minahal

Now That I Have You
All my life it seemed
That something had been missing
I didn't know what to do
Days would pass me by
Each as lonely as the other
Until I met you

REFRAIN:
You opened the door
And let the sunshine in
My life will never be the same again

CHORUS:
Now that I have you
Everything just seems so right
Now that I have you I'm alive
You are the song that I'll be
Singing my whole life through
I'm living in a brighter world
Now that I have you

Looking ahead I see
The two of us together
I'll never let you go
You're so dear to me
And it isn't any wonder
Why I love you so

REFRAIN:
You opened the door
And let the sunshine in
My life will never be the same again

CHORUS:
Now that I have you
Everything just seems so right
Now that I have you I'm alive
You are the song that I'll be
Singing my whole life through
I'm living in a brighter world
Now that I have you

BRIDGE:
I feel this love is real
I see it in your eyes
You take my hand and I understand
You are mine
You are mine

CHORUS:
Now that I have you
Everything just seems so right
Now that I have you I'm alive
You are the song that I'll be
Singing my whole life through
I'm living in a brighter world
Now that I have you

tapos some other songs,
"hindi kaya ikaw, baka ikaw na nga
meron ka bang naramdaman, akala ko'y wala
at ngayon sa tingin ko
sa kilos mo't galaw
siguro nga ano ba 'yon?
ano kaya? ikaw ba 'yon?
siguro nga ano kaya?
baka ikaw"

saka

"pakisabi na lang na mahal ko siya
di na baleng may mahal siyang iba
pakisabi wag siyang mag-alala, di ako umaasa
alam kong ito'y malabo, di ko na mababago
ganunpaman, pakisabi na lang"

halo talaga ang kanta nila, may nakaka-inlab at meron ding nakakaiyak. :D

first night

yahoo. i started to fulfill my vow to run every monday evening together with the twins. i am slowly working my way to take away lots of pounds from my growing body mass. tonight is quite different. initially, i am quite disappointed because moro's oval is closed due to the closed-door practice of the basketball team. how selfish! hehehe. so, we had to settle for the grassy oval behind the high school. it turned out to be better because of the cool wind, good atmosphere and green surroundings. i think the place made it more relaxing than tiring after making 5 laps of running/jogging and 2 laps of walking. i hope i can sustain this habit. i must!

YES! freecut sa theo bukas. yes!!!

first official area

we had our first official area day today. actually, when i went there, i never realized that i was the head - i am the one who's suppose to make the important decisions for the whole group going to payatas. it's a whole new experience and i'm still adjusting to the fact that i am the one heading now.

the processing point i chose was very appropriate, i believe. WHAT'S NEW? there were so many new things that can be noticed in our area. even though i constantly went there to check on the community, there were new things that really surprised me this morning. there were changes. there were improvements. basta maraming bago. kahit kaming mga nag-eerya, naninibago.

anu-ano ang mga kapani-panibago?
1. wala na ang mga dati naming kasama. the old faces, the new faces who transferred, the same faces who cannot join us yet, the same faces who just cannot join us. nakakalungkot pero at the same time, nakakapagpaisip sapagkat they're moving on.
2. marami nang mga heswita ulit ngunit karamihan, mga panibagong mukha. pero ang ganda this year is that they are looking forward to working with us and closely coordinating with us. gayundin kami. we really need a close coordination with the jesuits this time.
3. naglalakihan na ang mga batang kalaro lang namin. wala lang. naabutan namin ang isang batang dati, di pa naglalakad, nagsasalita, namamansin. ngayon, malaki na siya, makulit at madaldal.
4. dumarami na ang tumutulong sa simbahan, lalo na mga kabataan. nakakatuwa lang talaga. mas nakakatuwang isipin na the christian community there is slowly growing.
5. lumalawak na ang sakop ng aming area. ngayon ko lang narealize na napakarami palang opportunities na meron at ngayon, nalaman namin ang ilan lang (ngunit marami pa rin) sa mga 'yon. now, i am faced with the challenge of delegating the tasks to my areamates. hirap pero challenging na exciting.

sabi ko nga kanina, kasabay ng mga pagbabago at mga bago, dapat kaming maging sabik sa mga pagbabagong ito. dapat isaalang-alang namin na patuloy lang naming haharapin ang pagbabago nang may taglay na parehong enerhiya, libog at sigla.

yun lang. i am happy to be back in area today. fun lang siya talaga muli.

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"i don't know where to stand. the dilemma on choosing between being a friend who prevents and a friend who listens is still a concern. i hope i can find answers soon."

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class reunions

today was quite meaningful. for about 5 hours, my high school section had a class reunion. it was an enjoyable experience exchanging our own school experiences, our own lives and just about everything. kanina, i was talking to my classmates and i realized how much i missed being in high school (the uniform, the classmates, the teachers coming in and going out of your own classroom, your own seat and desk, everything about high school).

nakakatawa lang talaga ang mga dating hiritan nandoon pa rin pero siyempre ngayon mas sport na kasi medyo matured na. kwentuhan lang talaga kanina tungkol sa mga buhay-buhay. masaya siya. nakita ko ang halaga ng mga high school friends na kahit mayroon ka nang ibang buhay na hindi na katulad ng mga kaklase mo, kung magkita-kita kayo, malapit pa rin kayo. marami na kasing pinagdaanan as a class.

i wished there were more of this kind of reunion. salamat and congratulations sa nag-organize. galing.

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to my high school classmates,

thanks for a wonderful evening. you reminded me of something important - a high school life. when i was sitting a while ago and listening to your stories, all of you reminded me of a high school that was filled with laughter, trials and triumphs. all of you reminded me that i was, once, part of the best section in the history of xavier (of course, some, especially teachers and admin would think otherwise). all my experiences in our section, section c, have somewhat molded me into the person i am now. thanks again, especially to those who attended the reunion.

probably this night will be forgotten but i'm sure i will never forget all four years spent in the class that i've learned to love.

ang saya niyo pa ring kasama at walang kupas pa rin kayong lahat. sana nga pagdating ng panahong matatanda na tayo, magkikita-kita pa rin tayo sa isang parehong setting at magbabalik-tanaw sa masayang high school.

thank you all. congratulations to hub. God bless everyone.

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a while ago, before i went home, i passed by the church of the gesu because i wanted to pray and reflect. i knew that there was a concert and that i would like the beautiful music to be the background of my reflection. i ended up staying and completing the whole concert, for free. the effect was similar to last night's. there was this overwhelming movement of the spirit incorporated in every song sung by the choir. wow! yun lang ang aking masasabi. singing is, indeed, a beautiful form of prayer and i think it is much more effective and the presence and the movement of the spirit can really be felt through it.

gud night Lord.

a BLESSED day

when i woke up, i wasn't in the mood to go to school. why? my head was aching badly, REALLY BADLY! i had to discern well whether or not to go to school. however, i said to myself that if i miss school, it would be my 3rd consecutive cut for socio and anthropology. although my teacher doesn't care about overcutting, i don't like missing her funny and interesting class. i'd rather cut theo or fil instead.

yes, i decided to go to school but still with that stressful headache. buti na lang gumana yung mefenamic acid na ininom ko. nawala siya after my socio class. kumbinsing! hehe. the rest of the day became much more fun and blessed.

socio was very interesting. my teacher has a way of narrating her lessons which will make you listen, laugh and at the same time, learn. galing di ba? sobra siyang kwela at nagiging interesting ang kanyang lesson dahil sa inputs niya. she gives the layman's explanation to the complicated terms given in the readings.

next, psych was fun. we did the 6 approaches on the 2 other psych phenomena, which were altruism and love. sobrang insightful siya at this stage pa lang. and i am really enjoying my psych class especially with my teacher, lalo na she promised a session will be focused on psychology on love, asteeg noh? tapos i enjoy her question of the day as her attendance, and today's question is on the past life. i wrote that my past life was a king. hehehe. la lang. saka i like our homework: to observe someone for 5 minutes and take notes. astig di ba? an excuse to stalk your crush. hahaha.

psych stat was also fun. we had our second worksheet and our teacher encouraged us to finish the worksheet beyond our class time. since the room was ours (take note: airconed, with computers, internet and i love the office chairs), most of us decided to finish it there. la na namang class after saka we can consult with our peers. ang saya. nakaka-oc. at least, wala nang assignment.

siyempre, the day did not just end with my subjects. the real highlight of my day happened in the evening. the BIG BLUE EAGLE CHEER RALLY and the HIMIG HESWITA CONCERT DRY RUN.

1. the cheer rally was awesome. it was definitely better than last year's. last year was sobrang BITIN. this year, aside from introducing the teams one by one (not just through a spotlight) and involving everyone in cheering, meron pang thrilla in loyola exhibition game between the current blue eagles (fonacier, tenorio, bugia, intal, etc) and the blue eagle legends (wes gonzales, olsen racela, lastimosa, quimpo, sison, etc). but more than any allstar game na palakihan lang ng score at pagandahan ng tira, this game was really different. it was a battle as if our blue eagles are competing against a uaap rival. grabe. ganda ng game. it was tight, well-fought and enjoyable. ang laki lang ng problema ng fans, kung makashoot ang isang side, we clap. ganun din kung makashoot ang kabila. hehe. kakapagod magcheer. haha. tapos, perfect example yung last freethrow ni LA to ensure their victory, when he was shooting, "wala!" or "boo!" tapos when he made the shot, the same people would go "yehey!" kakatawa lang. current blue eagles won though 66-62. close di ba?

2. the dry run really ended my day on a high note, as in high note talaga. kahit na dry run lang siya, it was as if you were watching the real concert. the himig heswita with their friends sang their repertoire beautifully. sabi nga nung kasama ko when they did the sa'yo lamang, tanging yaman, panunumpa medley, napapaiyak na siya nung sabay-sabay na silang kumanta. grabe, mapapakanta ka, madadala ka, mapapaiyak ka, mapapadasal ka. lahat na lang ng mapapa- mangyayari sa'yo sa sobrang movement ng spirit. ang ganda. ang galing. after coming from a riotous exhibition game, going to gesu and listening to a solemn and beautiful repertoire are the best ways to calm the nerves and end the day.

hay... too much to share. sorry kung mahaba. di ko lang mapigil.

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excerpted from I Love The Lord (kinanta kanina):
"I love the Lord, He is filled with compassion
He turned to me on the day that I called,
From the snares of the dark,
O Lord, save my life, be my strength."

one more song, Good It Is To Give Thanks
"Good it is to give thanks and to praise Thy name,
Thy love we proclaim all throughout our days.
ALLELUIA ALLELUIA ALLELUIA ALLELUIA."

thank you, Lord, for this wonderful day.

back to my INTERNET

after missing one night of blogging like i said kanina, i'm back. my head is still aching though. at least, my tonsils are not swelling and my lower back is not painful anymore. but, because of that stupid physical fitness test yesterday, my muscles are very painful. ughh...

i think i have this start-of-the-schoolyear-fever. as much as i remember, i usually get sick when the school year is just beginning. siguro para di na magkasakit sa susunod pang mga buwan. hopefully.

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wala lang. gusto ko lang maging disiplinado sa goal kong tumakbo once every week sa moro. gusto kong makabawi sa masamang pagpapakita ko sa physical fitness test. hay. ang sakit pa rin ng ulo ko, ayoko na!

major LSS of the century:
Sumusunod sa galaw mo sumusunod
and of course,
Sasakyan kita sa lahat ng gusto mo
Sasakyan kita basta't sasakyan mo rin ako.

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reflection: may mga bagay na talagang hindi ko pa rin talaga mapaniwalaan. hindi ko pa rin lubos maisip na nangyayari ang ganitong mga bagay sa aking paligid. Kahit anupaman, masaya man o malungkot, nakakagulat o nakakatuwa, wala lang, di ko pa rin maisip nang maayos na nangyayari sila. just sharing!

STAT class

hey.. i'm in my psych stat class.

medyo bawal 'to pero i enjoy having a fast internet, a computer and an airconditioned room.

medyo may sakit pa rin ako. huhuhu. ang sakit pa ng ulo ko. that's why i wasn't able to blog last night.

too TIRED to BLOG

i'm currently very tired after i scoured through my treasure chests of things looking for important filipino books for this sem. unfortunately, i wasn't able to find ibong adarna. screw that bird. i'm too tired to think and blog. probably later after i've taken a bath. my body is aching. ouch.

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basta nakakatawa yung mass kanina. nuff said. :D

song excerpt: barry manilow - somewhere down the road

we had the right love at the wrong time
guess i always knew inside...

...coz somewhere down the road,
our roads are gonna cross again
it doesn't really matter when
somewhere down the road
i know that heart of yours will come to see
that you belong with me...

~ haaaay...

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short reflection lang. i was thinking about this for quite a while now. probably the reason why i am not entertaining any thoughts of being with someone at the moment is because i'm in a waiting mode. what do i mean? i believe that there's something within me that's still waiting for someone special in my life to come home. sino siya? i am not really sure though. minsan, pumapasok sa isipan ko na baka kaya ako ganito, hinihintay ko siyang bumalik.

ano bang kwento? heto. i had a childhood friend. we had this little "puppy love" with a pseudo-relationship. one of my vivid memories of her is that we made a promise to love each other for the rest of our lives. pero we were kids then. what do we know about love? then, we grew up, we never really become closer as we become more mature. she lived isolated from most people and i, the same. nagkahiyaan na kami at wala man lang lakas ng loob para mag-"hi" or mag-"hello" man lang. i remembered that she turned out to be a very beautiful long-haired lady.

however, she went to canada to live there permanently. i never saw her ever since. worse, i wasn't able to see her leave. in a way, medyo di ko na rin pinapansin ang thoughts about it. anyway, we were not close anymore. but sometimes, i just can't help remembering our childhood.

one time i recalled, back in high school, she went here and passed by our place. i think it was a saturday or a sunday. the people at home entertained her. unfortunately, i was not here. i think i was in school. "sayang!" sabi nila dito. di mo siya nakita. they said she has grown. i think she was looking for me also. sayang talaga. i missed the chance of seeing her again.

ngayon, di ko na alam kung nasaan siya o kung kelan siya ulit babalik dito sa pilipinas. di ko na masyadong naiisip. medyo nito lang mga nagdaang araw nang ma-highlight ang love sa mga usapan. i think i was fixated to be someone who is still waiting. waiting for her to come back. kung hindi for closure baka for some kind of opening. baka siya nga ang hinihintay ko talaga.

natatawa lang talaga ako kasi dati-rati this thought would cross my mind. yung thought na baka siya ang hinihintay ko. pero, ngayon ko lang talaga napagtuunan ng pansin ang bagay na ito. sana magbalik siya kaagad nang malaman ko. sana nababasa niya ito.

i am never this mushy when i write but i need to be more honest with myself. kahit i'm confused at times with my identity, i know that deep within me, i'm still waiting. i'm waiting for her. i'm waiting for her to come back, to come home. wala akong pakialam kung ano na ang itsura niya o kung may nakilala na siyang iba. ang mahalaga magkaalaman na.

but, just as everybody waiting. we need patient waiting. hintay lang, ika nga. maybe one day, magkukrus muli ang aming mga landas. somewhere down the road. malay natin. :)

the theme of my YEAR

i have a little hunch on what my entire year will look, sound and feel like. it will be in line with the theme of love. yes, LOVE. why? at the very beginning of my school year, even during summer, things i encounter are related to love in one way or another. love blooming, forbidden love, love as a decision, painful love, all sorts of love. most of the time, i am left in awe of the things i learn or the revelations told. but it makes me more thankful that i come to be more aware of people around me and of course, their views on love.

ano pa bang mas interesante sa paksang ito?

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i'm currently in the process of writing my paper and i must admit that i haven't studied for my filipino quiz. argghh... too much requirements and my brain is so overwhelmed.

short but simple

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

i just had a day with my family today. i think i needed this rest from school and from org. i needed to spend time with my family. so i enjoyed my quality time with my family especially this day is meant for our fathers.

wala lang, just sharing. nothing much today. brain's day off.

mukhang magandang article... ON LOVE

taken from patty's blog:

lahat ng mga kalalakihan, basahin nyo toh at damdamin! as in!

para sa mga taong nanliligaw,
nagbabalak
manligaw, nililigawan,
naliligaw, nag-iintay maligawan at nagbabalak
lumagay sa
magulo.......... esep-esep..

ang love ay hindi minamadali...
hindi pinipilit..
at lalong hindi kina-career...aray ko


unang-una...

PAANO MO BA NASABING MAHAL MO NA SIYA???...

dahil ba natutuwa ka sa kanya???...
o kaya naman naaaliw ka???...
naswee-sweetan ka ba ng sobra sa kanya???...
kinikilig ka ba pag nakikita mo siya???...
at nahi-high kapag naririnig mo na ang boses
niya???...

eh teka muna...
baka naman infatuated ka lang....
o kaya naman kagaya nga ng sagot mo...
BAKA naaaliw ka lang...
dahil kakaiba siya...
may spark na hindi mo maintindihan...

tsk!!!...
ang saklap nyan!...


pangalawa...

GAANO MO NA BA SIYA KAKILALA???...

madali ba siyang mapikon???...
pano ba siya mabadtrip???...
madali bang mahalata na may topak siya???...
ano bang suot niya pag nasa bahay siya???...
shorts ba o pantalon???...
nakasando ba siya o naka-t-shirt lang???...
matagal ba siyang maligo???....
kumakain ba siya ng vegetables???...
tamad ba siya???...
mas gusto ba niyang manood ng tv kaysa magbasa 4
ng
libro???... nagpe-play
station ba siya???... tatlo ba ang pamangkin
niyang lalaki???...
makukulit ba yung mga kamag-anak niya???...
green
ba ang kulay ng gate
ng bahay nila???... sa village ba siya
nakatira???... may sakayan ba ng
jeep na malapit sa kanila???... nagsisimba ba
siya linggo-linggo???...
kasama ba yung pamilya niya???... at nagdadasal
ba siya bago
matulog???...

in short...
alam mo na nga ba???...
ang mga bagay-bagay...
ang mga simpleng bagay tungkol sa kanya...
na nagdedetermine ng sarili niya...
as in kung sino ba talaga SIYA...

pangatlo...

KAYA MO BA SIYANG TANGGAPIN???...

as in TANGGAPIN ng buong-buo...

sa lahat ng trip niya sa buhay...
sa lahat ng katopakan niya...
sa lahat ng pag-iinarte at pag-dadrama niya...
sa lahat ng kasalanang nagawa, ginawa, at
gagawin
pa lang niya...
salahat ng naiisip niya... sa lahat ng sasabihin
niya... sa kilos niya...
sa pananamit pa pala niya... sa pagsasalita...
sa
pananaw niya sa
buhay... sa pagtrato niya sa tao... sa lifestyle
niya... sa uri ng
pamilyang meron siya... sa uri ng kaibigang kasa-
kasama niya... sa style
niya pagdating sa love... sa kasweetan niyang
natural... sa paglalambing
niya... sa tawa niyang pagkalakas-lakas... sa
manners niya... sa bisyo
niya kung meron man... sa mga pang-aasar niya
sayo... sa style niya
pagdating sa pagsolve ng problema... sa
problemang maaari ka ring
masama...

pang-apat...

KAYA MO BANG MAGING TOTOO???...

kaya mo bang makita yung sarili mo...
na kasama pa rin siya ha...
sa isang sitwasyong pag naisip mo eh...
mapapaiyak ka na lang sa sakit...
nang dahil din sa kanya???...

kaya mo bang magmukhang tanga...
as in umiyak ng dahil sa kababawan...
ibuhos ang mga nararamdaman mo...
kahit na puro kababawan nga lang naman...
as in kahit sa harapan niya???...

kaya mo bang maging barubal pag kasama mo
siya???...
yung tipo bang wala ka ng pakielam...
mawala man ang manners mo...
na wala ka naman talaga...

in short...

KAYA MO BANG MAGING IKAW KAPAG KASAMA MO NA
SIYA???...

yung tipong hindi ka nahihiyang ipakita kung
sino
ka
talaga...

dahil alam mong...

HINDI MO LANG SIYA TANGGAP...

TANGGAP KA RIN NIYA...

BUONG-BUO RIN...

MGA TAO!!!...
tama na kasi ang trip...
tama na ang pagmamadali...
oo masarap ngang mainvolve sa isang tao...
pero diba mas masarap yun...

LALO NA KUNG ALAM MONG TOTOO YUNG
NARARAMDAMAN MO....

kaya dapat, hinde tayo nagpapabulag sa akala
nating LOVE....
mag antay na lang tayo....
wag natin unahan....

for all we know, nde pa pala cya ang para sa
atin......

pero pag nasagot mo lahat ng nasa taas.... baka
nga mahal mo na cya...

pahabol on my WEEK of SCHOOLING

i just had to do this after reading falqi's blog. i'm going to make a review of my subjects for my first semester after a week.

sa21: i love this subject. though intro pa lang, i really like the way the teacher has been explaining anthropology and culture to us. nice way to start our every morning. i still can't forget how she explained how monkeys also think about sex, (e.g. kapag sinusuyo ng isang monkey ang isang head monkey ng isang grupo para makapasok sa grupo, "tara, sex tayo." e panu daw kung female monkey ang gustong sumali at alpha female ang head? nakoh...) hehehe.

psy101: i think i have a great teacher. she can explain a lesson in psychology in a manner that it will be more interesting, though the subject is interesting as it is. the teacher shows mastery of her field. can't wait till it gets to her expertise, social psych, gender and sexuality. hehe. kaya lang, masyadong mainit ang room namin. grr.

pe101: so far, can't tell yet. nagfreecut kami sa supposedly second meeting namin. oh well, pero ok na yung teacher namin kaysa dun sa dapat na teacher namin noh. hehehe. mukha namang mabait at passable.

psy102.1 pati psy102.2: ok yung teacher namin. she can explain her lesson well. kaya lang, since the classroom is airconditioned and there are lots of distractions (office chair, computers, internet, sleep) it is very difficult to always pay attention. but, i like the way she checks attendance though. may special question of the day.

theo121: i still can't imagine how our teacher teaches the subject. kaya lang, nagcut ako sa second meeting so i can't really give a sound opinion on this subject. alam ko maraming reading and sometimes, boring. mahinang magsalita ang teacher.

fil14: mahirap ang teacher. she has so many requirements but on the other hand, she can teach and explain well. mukhang mataray pero kakayanin. there's a problem, though. she tends to teach or to speak really fast that it is so hard to keep up with her. she can be very animated kaya lang our fil is at 12 noon to 1:30 kaya nakakagutom at nakakaantok lalo na mainit.

ayan, i reviewed my subjects na.

first weekend of SCHOOL

just wanna share. i really am quite addicted to blogging. aside from blogging, i like reading blogs of other people.

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well, my first weekend as a sophomore. i still can't believe i'm now a sophomore because i see the freshies doing what we usually do before. hahaha... share ko lang, my blockmates usually refer to them as the "f" word. "That's an f thing to do." hahaha. wala lang.

so far, i'm enjoying my sophie life except for some mishaps along the way but i am beginning to like studying especially with my mwf classes. i love psych. i really love psych and i'm slowly loving sociology and anthropology.

this afternoon's activity was very meaningful. i really think it was perfect for all of us in aclc. i really needed a refresher on the important skills for area. lalo na sa processing, ang ganda ng mga points. feeling ko, one reason i'm doing blogs is because i really need an outlet, a way to process all the things that has been happening to me and at the same time, i don't have the discipline to write notes on a journal notebook. i think a diary is very limiting. i am usually forced to write an entry per date per page. i don't really feel journalling should be that way.

the EVERY-BLOG-MUST-HAVES

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hala. baka raw sumabog ako. KABOOOOM!!!

the OUR FATHER

i just had my first "real" cut today. i purposely cut my theo class because i wasn't able to finish reading the assigned readings for today and i know that a quiz will be given. yup, i'm right. i missed a quiz. 10 points off my final mark. hahaha. oh well.

so i went up to school at around 11:30 and fortunately, i wasn't late for my fil class. i don't want to further tarnish my beautiful record. during fil, the teacher introduced how to read philippine literature. grabe. she speaks continuously, non-stop. also, she is very animated. i like her way of teaching but she has the tendency to be boring though. ok na sana kaso nga lang masyadong marami ang trabaho sa kanya.

after fil, i forgot that we have psych lab right after. shucks! tapos napagalitan ako kasi bawal palang uminom sa psych lab. hehehe. ok lang. i really enjoy the lab. may aircon, may computer at higit sa lahat, may internet. yahoo!

so yun, that was my beautiful day pero i still believe that my tth schedule is very hideous with a capital H. ang pangit talaga. the only advantage of having my ugly classes during tth is that when a teacher gives a homework on a thursday due on a tuesday, matagal mong pwedeng gawin.

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now, one of the highlights of my day was our unit's cba. after a long time, we got to eat out and share stuff once again as a unit. sayang nga lang, our guide wasn't able to make it. i really missed my unit. i hope we can meet more regularly. ang saya lang makipagmeet with your unit.

another highligh is my consultation with my bossing, the apostolate coordinator of ACLC. wala lang, i needed to pour out my feelings before really continuing my responsibilities as an arearep. i think i went off-track and i need to REROUTE: to go back to where i was heading before. salamat marky!

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i hope this doesn't make this blog boring. i really like to share realizations. i want to share my realization with the our father. this afternoon, we had our usual afternoon praise by reading the daily Gospel, short sharing and praying on the scripture. today's scripture is on the our father. indeed, this prayer has been taught to us since we were kids and it became more of a routine to pray it. it became a formula prayer. but when did we really appreciate the true essence and meaning of the prayer?

honestly, i just found out the deeper meaning of the prayer today. nakakahiya nga eh. tagal ko nang katoliko, ngayon ko lang talagang napanghawakan ang kahulugan ng panalanging itinuro at inihandog sa atin ng Diyos sa pamamagitan ni Hesus.

i realized that it's a perfect prayer: all intentions for praying are all in the our father. thanksgiving, praise, forgiveness and request are all there. just speak it whole-heartedly. sabi nga sa bible, don't just babble out the prayer. kelangang manggaling sa puso ang panalanging ito. second realization is that the our father is a happy prayer because it is God's way of becoming close to us. he taught us this prayer to be close to us. siya na ang nagbigay ng paraan para lalo tayong mapalapit sa kanya. parang sinabi niya through this prayer, "o, heto na ang text ko, text mo ako kung kailangan mo ako." isang our father lang.

OUR FATHER in heaven
hallowed be Thy name...

*sigh*

that's just how my day ended. *sigh*

i enjoyed my psych, stat and socio/anthrop classes today. today, the weather started out hot and then rain poured... as in POURED. i got drenched. grabe.

i would like to write lots of stuff but i need to read my theo and fil readings baka may quiz tomorrow. mahirap na. hehehe.

and to really end my day *sigh*

my TTh

how i wished that the switching of teachers would have included my teachers for my TTh classes. my God! i don't like my tth subjects.

first, i have a sexy and quite beautiful of a THEO teacher. imagine that... a theo teacher! however, her only problem is that she speaks too softly and it's very hard to get what she wants of us. i don't know what to recite. mahirap siyang timplahin. according to my teacher research, the best way to get a good grade in her class is to make "sipsip" and try to give answers that would make her agree. an opposing idea will not be good in her class. ugh. i don't think i can learn that way but i have to live with it.

second, i have a veteran teacher for filipino 14. she's nice but she's sooo strict and she gives tons, and i mean TONS, of work for her class. grabe. imagine reading around 25 readings in one sem, which includes noli me tangere, florante at laura and ibong adarna, for the whole sem. take note, these are only 3 of the readings and quizzes will be given after every reading i suppose. this is not the only requirement. basta, she gives tons of work and she's nice na raw sa lagay na'to. grabe talaga. and what's worse, i got my first cut because i was 2 mins late coming from a university mass. susmaryosep!

i really think i will learn to hate my TTh classes. buti na lang masaya ang mwf. oh well. i have to live with that for a sem. as if i have any other choice di ba?

i would like to rant that i left my bag and my umbrella inside our org room because the stupid janitor locked the room knowing that students might come back to get their stuff. i just went to our library to browse through some required readings and when i came back, locked doors. worse of all, the janitors do not have keys anymore. argggg...

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on the flipside, i really enjoyed hearing mass today and of course, the clincher today was my confession. i never felt that much healing before. yak. corny but true.

some REALIZATIONS of a SOPHOMORE

it's official. i'm a SOPHOMORE! *clap clap clap clap clap*

well, today's the first day of classes in ateneo and i would like to list down all my observations as my entry as a sophomore.
1. freshmen will always be freshmen: clueless, restless, eager, lost, nagkalat sila sa buong campus, crowds ateneo more.
2. i hate it when the teachers pull out a surprise like switching places with another teacher of another class. my vision of this coming sem was shattered because i was looking forward to be the student of one of the most okay teachers of psych... but no, she exchanged, not only in 101 but also in 102. grrr...
3. i got to bond again with high school friends.
4. first day subjects will always dismiss you late and your first homework is either to read the first chapter of the book or to bring 1x1 picture next meeting.
5. it is very difficult to look for a bench or tambayan for our block especially when freshies crowd the school. we believe that it is imperative to have one.
6. psych books are ultimately expensive.
7. food in the caf is much better than last year. mukhang walang mafoofood poison. hehe.
8. it's a hot day with rain.
9. it's nice to be with your orgmates again for an official school year.
10. i have at least one friend outside from my block who is a classmate in each subject.
11. our teachers were almost all women. kaya lang sa pe, napalitan. sayang!
12. i just can't believe i've already become a sophomore. parang kahapon lang, sila ang naiinis sa aming mga freshmen. ngayon, kasama na ako sa mga naiinis.

it was a very hectic yet fun-filled day. however, i didn't feel any difference from going to school for the past weeks and going to school this week. siguro, may official graded classes lang kaya naiiba. pero take away that part, i will not feel any different this time around. oh well... may pasok na talaga. official na 'to. aaahhh... *yawn* i'm sleepy. believe it or not, i slept only for 3 hours last night. hindi dahil excited ha. gusto ko lang.

MY VACATION IS REALLY OVER. SOPHOMORE YEAR HERE I COME! i promise to be in the dean's list this year.

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UNO CATE 2004-2005
nagpapanday: nakasentro sa paghubog at pagbibigay-hugis

neutral daw o?

Neutral:
Harmony and balance is key. You don't look at the
world in a negative or positive way and you'll
never judge or assume a situation- you just
look at the facts. People like you are peaceful
and accepting.



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SONG ENTRY #9: hoku - you first believed

How many
times did I pray you'd find me...
How many wishes on a star,
Gazing off into the dark
Dreaming I'd see your face
Safe at home unafraid,
Captured in your embrace.

So many times
when my heart was broken,
Visions of you would keep me strong.
You were with me all along,
Guiding my every step.
You are all that I am
And I'll never forget.

It was you,
who first believed
In all that I was made to be.
It was you, looking in my eyes.
You held my hand and showed me life.
And I've never been the same,
Since you first believed.

There were times when I thought I'd lost you,
Fearing forever was a dream.
But it wasn't what it seemed,
Placing your hand in mine,
You could see in the dark,
You were guiding my heart.

It was you, who first believed
In all that I was made to be.
It was you, looking in my eyes.
You held my hand and you showed me life.
And I've never been the same,
Since you first believed.

It was you, who first believed
In all that I was made to be.
It was you, looking in my eyes.
You held my hand and you showed me life.
And I've never been the same,
Since you first believed.

How many times did I pray you'd find me...
How many wishes on a star...

~ wala na akong maisip na mas magandang kanta dahil ito ang kantang naging pop pero talagang religious. for jesus nga raw ito eh. yup, i am singing this also for jesus.

looking FORWARD

i am looking forward to going to area this year.

after much stress that i incurred in planning this plansem, i realized that our plansem is more than the venue. i realized that the people taking part in it will make or break the event. and i am proud to say that my areamates have made planning for the plansem worth it. our plansem turned out to be very meaningful, fruitful, productive and of course, successful. we were able to lay down our plans clearly.

actually, i'm feeling a little bit of a "high" after our planning. we did more than just plan for our area, we reestablished our tight bond as an area and we were able to set a positive and fresh outlook for the coming year in our area.

HAY NAKOH. ongapala. school begins tomorrow. ugh.

i'm not looking forward to going to school except of course because i'm going to see my orgmates but i still think that i need at least a week more of vacation.

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well, since this is the official end of my summer vacation. let me evaluate my summer. from the evsem up until this day. this summer has become one of my most memorable summer. kahit wala akong summer classes, or something regular na ginagawa, masasabi kong kakaiba talaga ang idinulot ng summer na ito.

i learned lots of things. i realized lots of things. i got the chance to reflect on lots of things. i was able to gain new insights on different things. share ko sometime ang mga yun. and i must say, i can write a book with only my summer experience. ganun kabigat ang summer na ito.

for content: this summer gets a 10 out of 10
for stress: this summer gets a 10 out of 10 also (eustress and distress)

hahaha. well, now i'm excited though i'm exhausted and tired. but i still have that hangover from this weekend's plansem.

GO UNOCATE! sabay tayong magpanday...

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reflection lang on 1Cor 12:25-26
"God himself arranged the body in this way, giving more honor to those parts that need it, so that the body may not be divided, but rather each member may care for the others. When one suffers, all of them suffer, and when one receives honor, all rejoice together."

SONG ENTRY #8: south border - rainbow

Fallin out, fallin in
Nothin's sure in this world, no no
Breakin out, breakin in
Never knowin what lies ahead
We can really never tell it all

Say goodbye, say hello
To a lover or friend
Sometimes we couldn't just understand
Why good things begin then just end
We can really never have it all

But oh, can't you see
That no matter what happens
Life goes on and on
So baby just/please SMILE
Coz i'm always around you
And i'll make you see
How beautiful life is for you and me

Take a little time baby
See the butterflies colors
Listen to the birds that were sent
To sing for me and you
Can you feel me
This is such a wonderful place to be

Even if there is pain now
Everything will be alright
For as long as the world still turns
There will be night and day
Can you hear me
There's a rainbow always after the rain

Hittin high, hittin low
Win or lose you should go
Getting warm, getting cold
Weather could be so good or bad
But baby this is life
Now don't get mad

Coz oh, can't you see
That no matter what happens
Life goes on and on
So baby just/please SMILE
Coz i'm always around you
And i'll make you see
How beautiful life is for you and me

Take a little time baby
See the butterflies colors
Listen to the birds that were sent
To sing for me and you
Can you feel me
This is such a wonderful place to be

Life's full of challenges
Not all the time we get what we want
But don't despair my dear
(And i know that) You'll take each trial
And you'll make it through the storm coz you're strong
My faith in you is clear
So i'll say once again this world is wonderful
And let us celebrate life that's so beautiful, so beautiful

Take a little time baby
See the butterflies colors
Listen to the birds that were sent
To sing for me and you
Can you feel me
This is such a wonderful place to be

~ last of today's lyric entries: one of the most hopeful songs i heard these days. very apt for this almost hopeless situation of us, filipinos. a good song to sing pag malaki na ang mga problema. this is what i feel right now. even though i may have problems, i now that there's a rainbow always after the rain.

SONG ENTRY #7: tamia - officially missing you

All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why'd you have to go
Cause this pain I feel
It wont go away
And today I'm officially missing you

I thought that from this heartache
I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And today
I'm officially missing you

Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially

All I do is lay around
Two ears full tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all
I don't know you at all

Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say baby safe to say
That I'm officially missing you

Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially

Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way
To let go of you

Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially

It official
You know that I'm missing you
Yeah yes
All I hear is raindrops
And I'm officially missing you

~ one of the best missing songs... nakakaiyak, nakakaluha, ngunit masarap kantahin pag nalulungkot at nalulumbay dahil sa pangungulila.

SONG ENTRY #6: stevie wonder - knocks me off my feet

I see us in the park
strolling the summer days
of imaginings in my head.

And words from our hearts
told only to the winds felt
even without being said.

I don't want to bore you with my trouble
But there's something 'bout your love
that makes me weak and knocks me off my feet.

There's something 'bout your love
that makes me weak and knocks me off my feet
knocks me off my feet.

I don't want to bore you with it
oh but I love you
I love you
I love you.

I don't want to bore you with it
oh but I love you
I love you

I love you more and more.

We lay beneath the stars
under a lover's tree
that's seen through the eyes of my mind.

And I reach out for the part
of me that lives in you
that only our two hearts can find.

I don't want to bore you with my trouble
But there's something 'bout your love
that makes me weak and knocks me off my feet.

There's something 'bout your love
that makes me weak and knocks me off my feet
knocks me off my feet.

I don't want to bore you with it
but I love you
I love you
I love you.

I don't want to bore you with it
but I love you
I love you..

~ from the first time i heard this song, it became an instant favorite. one of the best songs na kinanta ni stevie wonder. nakakakilig and ang sarap kantahin.

up and down

my title for this day's blog summarized my day perfectly. up and down.

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UP: i attended the summer general assembly of our org, aclc. i realized how much i've missed my org and the people in it. i realized how it plays an important part in my life right now, as a student, as a son, as a friend and as a christian. today, i remembered why i was still in ateneo and why i was still in my org.

2 major things struck me today.

1. je, our moderator, told us that aclcers should give their 90%, not just 70%. absolutely. to be able to maximize and appreciate the entirety of the formation of the christian life community, you have to give it everything you've got. hindi pwedeng paunti unti lang. her words, filled with passion for the way of life, struck me and hit me hard. we're very lucky to have her as our moderator for this year. galing nya!

2. fr. jett villarin celebrated our mass after the general assembly. it was the best way to end the whole activity. there, i realized that i've never enjoyed the mass the way i enjoyed fr. jett's mass. he celebrated the mass in such a way that he speaks to you personally. for me, the mass had an impact because the celebrant did not isolate himself from the congregation or the community. he said mass in a more personal note, reaching out to everyone in the room. nagustuhan ko yung sinabi niya tungkol sa puno. ngayon, vulnerable pa kami, kailangan diligan para patatagin dahil pag nakaugat na at hinog na, kahit anong unos, matatag ka na. he emphasized on prayer. ngayong matanda na siya, prayer is more than a chore; an obligation. he sees the need to pray everyday and if he misses out on prayer, he always feels that something is missing in his life. grabe, ganyan na ang feeling ko. second, nagustuhan ko yung binigay niyang hamon sa amin sa aming pagbabalik-ugat. he challenged us to face social and spiritual apathy. begin with the poor and make everyone aware that there is a God. it is not in bringing God to them but finding God in them. galing talaga ni fr. jett. i really enjoyed the mass.

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DOWN: i feel down because of confusion and concern. confused and concerned about lots of things. don't want to divulge. masyado ring komplikado. hindi ko na maipaliwanag. but being the optimistic person that i am, naiisip ko lagi ang nakuha kong grasya sa araw na ito. i felt the importance of prayer in my life kaya ipinagdasal ko na lang ito. so medyo okay na rin.

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ReROOT, Coming Home to the Way of Life...
CLC way of life, i'm coming home to you once again.

SONG ENTRY #5: sponge cola - jeepney

Bumaba ako sa jeepney
Kung saan tayo'y dating magkatabi
Magkahalik ang pisngi nating dalwa
Nating dalawa

Panyo mo sa aking bulsa
Ang amoy mo'y naroon pa rin
Tawa nati'y humahalay
sa init nating dalawa

Subalit ngayo'y wala na
Ikaw ay lumayo na

Naaalala ko ang mga gabing nakahiga sa ilalim ng kalawakan
Naaalala ko ang mga gabing magkatabi sa ulan

Kulay nang iyong ngiti
Tikwas ng iyong buhok
At ang lambot ng iyong labi
Iyong labi

Kahit anino mo sa malayo
Ay nais masulyapan
Upang mapawi
Ang lamig

~ well, i heard this during the orsem night when sponge cola sung it. it was quite a long time since i heard them sing this song and it brought back memories of high school and those people who fell in love with this song. yup, i really liked this original composition of theirs. they rock!

a BARRAGE of song entries

since i'm "paos" today because of shouting "MOOOOOB!" (mobilize) and "FRESHMEN, MOVE FASTER!" i can't sing today. awww... shucks. so instead of singing, i will just enter a barrage of song entries. some came from my old blog account that i abandoned. sing with me.

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Music has charms to soothe a savage beast, to soften rocks, or bend a knotted oak. - William Congreve (1670 - 1729)

just more STRESS...

well, i thought after a good rest from the stressful but fun and enjoyable orsem, everything will be just fine. but no, the problem of our venue for the plansem of my area wasn't resolved up until around 11 pm. my goodness. i didn't realize that planning for a plansem was this stressful.

luckily, one of my areamates allowed us to use her condo unit in katipunan. wow, from planning to go to quezon, pampanga, tagaytay, rizal, batangas, we just ended up in front of ateneo. wow... amazing isn't it?

i just hope we can straighten things out when we meet tomorrow.

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i didn't do much things today. i used this day for my well-deserved and much-needed rest from the tiresome yet fulfilling work in orsem. i hope the freshies really, i mean really, enjoyed what we, all 1000+ of us volunteers, prepared for them.

i also spent my time fixing the details of that plansem and printing all our important documents. now, this is a boring day. reeeaaally boring day. i'm just looking forward to our org's summer ga tomorrow afternoon.

STRESS!!!

well, this is the most perfect word that can summarize this day of the orsem. nope, i'm not stressed because of the freshmen. in fact, they're the reason we still do the volunteer work in log. the most stressful are the disappointing and unavoidable events.

don't get me wrong, though. i really enjoyed participating as an orsem volunteer. reading the good reviews and seeing the smiles and the way they enjoyed the activities planned for them. the stress just wears off after seeing those. however, too many events just transpired today. masyado lang siyang nakakaoverwhelm na sa fatigue at pagod na aming nararamdaman, lalo lang nadadagdagan ang aming stress.

so now, i feel all the effects of 3 days of covered courts work. ouch. stress.

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aside from the stress, i really enjoyed the org tours presentation of our org. it seemed like we became a more interesting org by the looks of the freshmen. now, i realized why it was a tradition for us to cross dress and dance stupidly in front of the freshmen. oh well, i really enjoyed it.

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last words: "LOG KO 'TO!"

just before I go to rest

wala lang. i read some of the comments of the freshmen for the 1st two days of orsem2004. most, if not all, liked the orsem. as a volunteer, i'm very happy. i mean it. as in, i'm very very very very happy. these just show that our hardwork and effort are being appreciated by the freshmen. makes me feel guilty, though, because as a freshman, i always whine or sometimes just be apathetic. now i got the perspective of a volunteer. 1 more day. only 2 hours of sleep. or less.... huhuhuhu. thursday rest here i come!

when boredom sets in

yes i know...

A very "special" dictionary. by lily22
Look up:
Definition:	To study like a madman the night before a test, only to find out the next day in class that the test has been canceled; in law, the crime of assaulting a teacher for no apparent reason while fellow classmates are celebrating the sudden lack of a test.
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i like this definition though. sometimes, i can relate but most of the time i'm part of those cheering because the test got cancelled.

SONG ENTRY #4: sugarfree - burnout

O wag kang tumingin
Ng ganyan sa akin
Wag mo akong kulitin
Wag mo akong tanungin

Dahil katulad mo
Ako rin ay nagbago
Di na tayo tulad ng dati
Kay bilis ng sandali

Chorus:
O kay tagal din kitang minahal
O kay tagal din kitang minahal

Kung iisipin mo
Di naman dati ganito
Teka muna teka lang
Kelan tayo nailang?
Kung iisipin mo
Di naman dati ganito
Kay bilis kasi ng buhay
Pati tayo natangay

Tinatawag kita sinusuyo kita
Di mo man marinig, di mo man madama

Chorus2:
O kay tagal din kitang mamahalin
O kay tagal din kitang mamahalin
Oh mamahalin, mamahalin.....

~ sa mga nagmamahal wag sana kayo umabot sa kantang ito. saka dun sa mga manliligaw pa lang, alalahanin ninyo na maaari kayong umabot sa burnout pero wag sana. wag na sanang umabot sa sakitan dahil wala na kayong nararamdaman para sa isa't isa.

to my readers...

mangangarap muna ako ng kaunti, hehehe. (kunwari maraming nagbabasa ng blog ko. hahahaha) promise, baka lagyan ko ito ng mga kalokohan or malamang mga articles. also, i might update my site by using a much more personal design rather than using this template which i borrowed from blogger.

yeah blogger! BLOG NOW.

the return of AKO... moooooooob.

i'm sorry for the delay in my blogs. haven't blogged for 2 nights. why? sunday evening i had no monitor. ugh. monday evening, i fell asleep because of the tiring orsem. another ugh!

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well, at least, the second day of orsem has ended. yes! it has been an enjoyable experience seeing the freshmen undergo the same activity we had last year. now, it became more interesting since i'm one of those pressuring them to move faster by shouting "moooob!" (mobilize). kakatawa lang. at the same time, lots of realizations came into me as i do my work as a volunteer of the logistics committee (the best committee under the orsem of the ateneo).

realization #1: many people working together and taking initiative really made this orsem very efficient. ang galing-galing namin pala. i saw how efficient we are as we worked together in cleaning and fixing the covered courts all for the freshmen. only the logcom! log ko'to!

realization #2: nobody does it the way we do, admu. absolutely! i don't think any other school can offer this well-prepared, big and one-of-a-kind orientation seminar for the freshmen. if they won't feel any welcome at all, they have a very big problem. they need help.

realization #3: i'm growing older. i saw this 13 year old kid, who's in college. grabe! he's going to take up philosophy. geez. 13 years old? i was just graduating from grade school and was just about to deliver my welcoming address to the batch. nakupo. i'm old!

realization #4: it is really best to work with your friends. mas masaya obvious ba?

realization #5: i'm excited to dance during the orgtours tomorrow and i'm excited to stay for the orsem night and the orsem volunteers' night. i'm just excited. i think they will really be fun.

so much for orsem realizations. the freshmen this year are cool. the orsem this year rocks! GO ATENEO! log ko'to.

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i really want to post this one last night. i'm really happy that i was able to find a place for our planning for our apostolate group. at last. good thing and it's in tagaytay. now, i'm more excited. i can't wait to plan and to relax there before school starts. we really need it to start on the right foot.

it was really hell looking for that venue. it was really difficult, especially when lots of activities are in conflict with the preparation days for this plansem.

haaay salamat. thank you jul for the place!

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today, many conversations were all about love. geez. you know when the topic is love everybody gets talking and sharing. kakatawa lang nga minsan dahil nagkakaiba ang mga pananaw na nakabase sa mga karanasang iba-iba. kaya minsan may nagtatalo at minsan may nagkakasundo.

but to further talk about love, let me share with you this article i read. yup, it's about love alright. but i think this is one of the best articles written for love.

What is love?

What is love?

For all you people who say "I love you"
when you have no clue what love is exactly!!!
Something to ponder upon.....

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing
and is your voice
caught within your chest??

-It isn't love, it's LIKE.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them,
am I right??

-It isn't love, it's LUST.

Are you proud, and eager to show them off??

-It isn't love, it's LUCK.

Do you want them because you know they're
there??

-It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.

Are you there because it's what everyone
wants??

-It isn't love, it'S LOYALTY.

Are you there because they kissed you, or held
your hand??

-It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.

Do you stay for their confessions of love,
because you don't
want to hurt them??

-It isn't love, it's PITY.

Do you belong to them because their sight
makes your heart skip a
beat??

-It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.

Do you pardon their faults because you care
about them??

-It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.

Do you tell them every day they are the only
one you think of??

-It isn't love, it's a LIE.

Are you willing to give all of your favorite
things for their
sake??

-It isn't love, it's CHARITY.

Does your heart ache and break when they're
sad??

-Then it's LOVE.

Do you cry for their pain, even when they're
strong??

-Then it's LOVE.

Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch
your soul so
deeply it hurts??

-Then it's LOVE.

Do you stay because a blinding,
incomprehensible mix of pain
and relation pulls you close and holds you
there??

-Then it's LOVE.

Do you accept their faults because they're a
part of who they are??

-Then it's LOVE.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with
them faithfully
without regret??

-Then it's LOVE.

Would you give them your heart, your life,
your death??

-Then it's LOVE.

Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so,
why do we love?
Why is it all we search for in life? This
pain, this agony?
Why is it all we long for?

This torture, this powerful death of self?
Why? The answer is
so simple cause it's...LOVE. It is such an
addictive thing that
even people who are not having it wish to
experience it and
share it with others as well.

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to end this post, quoting the scq teen champion (aisa pahiram! hehe): "para ito sa mga nangangarap para sa akin at sa mga katulad kong nangangarap."

so simple and humble pero it speaks a lot about a person. congrats dude, i believe you deserve the distinction of being a star circle grand questor! clap clap clap

SONG ENTRY #3: fantasia barrino - i believe

Have you ever you ever reached a rainbow's end
And did you find your pot of gold
Ever catch a shooting star
Tell me how high did you soar
Ever felt like you were dreaming
Just to find that you're awake
Cause the magic that surrounds you
Will lift you up and guide you on your way

I can see it in the stars across the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
See I've waited all my life for this moment to arrive
And finally yeah

I believe in the impossible
If I reach deep within my heart
Overcome any obstacle
Won't let this dream fall apart
See I strive to be the very best
Shine my light for all to see
Cause anything is possible
When you believe yeah

I can see it in the stars up in the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
I've waited all my life for this moment to arrive
And finally I believe
Yes I believe

Ohh Yeah

Love keeps liftin me higher
Liftin me higher
Love keeps liftin me higher
I said love keeps liftin
Love keeps liftin me
I said Love keeps liftin
Love keeps liftin me higher
Said love keeps liftin me higher
I said love keeps liftin me high

~ after watching star circle quest, syempre di ko pipiliin ang this is the moment. i think this is the best song for the moment of the grand questor. kantang sinulat ni tamyra na kinanta ni fantasia sa american idol.

you can be a star... STAR CIRCLE QUEST

yup, i'm jologs. i watch these shows. i'm just amazed at how they arrive at the winner. yes, all of us know that hero won. i wasn't surprised. my prediction was either hero or roxanne. i was surprised, though, when roxanne seemed to be the second runner up. pero i remembered na in no particular order nga pala ang pagsasabi nila ng out. hehehehehe. i think na they did that to be fair to sandara's fans at para di magkagulo dun sa coliseum. mahirap na. hahahaha.

so much for scqt, okay lang na nash won sa kids. sayang si aaron! hehehehehe.

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sheesh, so much for my "ka-jologan". i just want to share my day. i wasn't able to take that stupid guidance test. i was already up by 7 am but due to my desire to get more sleep, yup, you guessed right, i went back to bed and when i opened my eyes, it was already 11 am. i missed a test scheduled at 8 am! hahahaha. maybe i'll take it during the make-up day for those who missed it, kaya lang, we have to pay for the test! this is the reason why i called it stupid. the office hassled us by announcing this test only days before today, they scheduled it even before school starts, tapos if you weren't able to take it, sa make -up, may bayad! grrr.... tapos, lalo akong nainis nang nalaman kong kaya ang test in less than 2 hours. grrr...

hay nakoh. to make up for my wasted half-day, on the other hand, i went up to ateneo at 2:00 pm. i helped out, being a part of the logistics committee of the orsem, in setting-up the covered courts for the freshmen on monday. grabe talaga ang special treatment sa freshmen. the set-up and layout was followed strictly. nakakapagod magunstack and magarrange ng mga chairs na nanggaling sa cubao.

afterwards, i went to funeraria paz, together with my orgmates, to help out in the funeral mass of the grandmother of the former head of our org. he is also my friend. it was somewhat sad, but i felt that their grandmother played an important role in their lives.

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well, for today's reflection: it is not God's will to take away someone in death. i realized that death is the manifestation of God's love as seen in the life lived by the person who just died. kaya when someone leaves us, we should always remember the good things he/she did and how he/she became an instrument of God's love in our lives.

wala lang, just sharing. by the way, ang dami palang pamahiin pagkagaling sa burol. grabe talaga! hehehehe.

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the magic continues...

just a quote...

" -- the language that everyone on earth was capable of understanding in their heart - It was love. Something older than humanity, more ancient than the desert. Something that exerted the same force whenever two pairs of eyes meet...

...Because, when you know that language, it's easy to understand that someone in the world awaits you, whether it's in the middle of the desert or in some great city. And when two such peole encounter each other, and their eyes meet, the past and the future become unimportant. There is only that moment, and the incredible certainty that everything under the sun has been written by one hand only. It is the hand that evokes love, and creates a twin soul for every person in the world. Without such love, one's dreams would have no meaning..." - taken from The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

i just want to share my signature in the forums of atenista.net. it's one of the most nice definitions and descriptions of love. hehehehe.

SONG ENTRY # 2: mymp - a little bit

I was kinda hesitant to tell you
Should i let you know?
i was never really like this before
Need i say more?

Or maybe i'm confused when you are near me
I don't know what to do or i should be
There's only one thing in my mind
That's you and me

I'm a little bit of crazy
I'm a little bit of a fool
I'm a little bit of lonely
I'm a little bit of all
Oh, i need a cure
Just a little bit of you
And i will fall

I'm always on the run to see you
Would you allow me to?
It wasn't my intention to hurt you
This feeling is true

Or maybe i'm confused when you are near me
I don't know what to do or i should be
There's only one thing in my mind
That's you and me

I'm a little bit of crazy
I'm a little bit of a fool
I'm a little bit of lonely
I'm a little bit of all
Oh, i need a cure
Just a little bit of you
And i will fall
And I will fall

Or maybe i'm confused when you are near me
I don't know what to do or i should be
There's only one thing in my mind
That's you and me

I'm a little bit of crazy
I'm a little bit of a fool
I'm a little bit of lonely
I'm a little bit of all
Oh, i need a cure
Just a little bit of you
And i will fall
And I will fall

I'm a little bit of crazy
I'm a little bit of a fool
I'm a little bit of lonely
I'm a little bit of all
Oh, i need a cure
Just a little bit of you
And i will fall

And I will fall

~ this song is just right for those who give their all when it comes to love. ito ang sumasalamin sa pagbubuhos ng lahat-lahat. konting kabaliwan, konting katangahan.

ibuhos mo lahat

this day was a tiring and stressful day. i had to worry about the venue of our planning seminar which is on friday. i wasn't able to find a definite venue. i found alternatives but nothing definite. aaaaaah! if i could just scream my problem out loud... well, aside from this problem, i had to attend the ga of all the orsem volunteers. i felt a little bit out of place since the tnt were so cliquish. i loved the film though. the theme, kill bill, was nice and the editing and direction highlighted the beauty of the film more. i just can't help but laugh at the "jolog-ness" of the love story. hehehe. maybe it's part of the film. after the film, we went on to the different committees. i'm still ranting over the t-shirts, though. one of the reason why i went there is the tshirt i paid for. however, the logcom was not able to get one because the stock was not enough for all the logcom volunteers. grrr!!!

well, so much for the day. i really want to share my reflection today. when i was listening to the homily of the priest in the mass during the orsem volunteers' ga, i was struck by what he said. he said when you love, give it all. ibuhos mo lahat. kung magmamahal ka rin lang, wag nang papira-piraso o patingi-tingi. ibigay mo na lahat. sapagkat sa pamamagitan ng pagmamahal na buo sa iba, maipapakita mo ang pagmamahal mo ng buo sa Diyos. tinablan ako doon sa ibuhos mo lahat. paano na yan? wala na ba akong ititira sa sarili ko? it is very difficult to think about it but come to think of it, many i know will give their all, sometimes unknowingly, just because of love. sometimes, wala nang natitira sa sarili kaya talagang kawawa kapag hindi talaga ibinabalik ang pagmamahal mo. but as long as you know that you've given him/her all the love you can give, masasabi mong nagmahal ka talaga.

"if you couldn't love your neighbors whom you can see, how can you love God whom you can't see?" just a quote from the homily.

midnight oil

i love typing my insights during the midnight. i just feel that many of my insights, views, observations and reflections come out right during the midnight. thus, my sleeping pattern has become very erratic lately. with this new sleeping pattern, i could just go to the us without feeling any jetlag. yup, the midnight oil is for me!

i would like to quote my entry in my failed blog. hehe. here it goes:

"my ideas are always active during the hours when most of the people in my side of the world are either asleep or preoccupied doing their own thing. maybe because I am the only person left to think about my ideas. kakaunti lang kasi ang nag-iisip sa mga oras na 'yon, kumbaga sa cellphone, hindi congested 'yung ere ng mga text, nakakaisip ako nang maluwang. gaya ngayon, hindi ko maiisip itong katawa-tawang ideyang ito kung maraming tao ang gising o nag-iisip sa oras na ito. well, I don't know. This is just my own theory."

SONG ENTRY # 1: hoobastank - the reason

I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

~ i love this song. among all the alternative songs, this one really got me singing. the song's meaning is beautiful, the way hoobastank sung it was beautiful. wow! kakainlove for something alternative.

a FIRST of everything

heya, it's my first entry of my first ever on-line blog. i'm sorry but i was influenced by those who invited me to read their blogs. i've always wanted a journal for myself but i really don't have enough discipline and, sometimes, time to write one. for the longest time, i wanted to have a blog but my laziness overtook everything and my plan to have a blog then never pushed through. well, now, after reading the blogs of my friends, i was just fascinated and wanted one for myself, badly. kaya, here is my blog: SINGING IN TUNE.

why SINGING IN TUNE? simple. i am a music lover. i love to sing, to play guitar, to jam with some of my friends, and of course, to listen to music, especially those with beautiful lyrics. music is my invisible journal. songs i listen to always remind me of different experiences and memories in my life. these make music more meaningful to me.

what to expect? nakoh. probably, i might have days with no entries but some might have many entries. wala lang. entries will depend on my mood. hahaha. so if there'll be 4 entries in a day, that will only mean na sobra na akong walang magawa sa bahay at sa blog na ako nagpapakaabala. of course, i would like to enter a song entry per day. baka yung lss ko, o yung pumasok na song sa utak ko, o kahit anong kanta na lang na trip ko. hehehe.

at last, a journal! a blog! hahahaha.